So I'm starting back at public school tomorrow (crowd cheers), and there are a few things worrying me. Okay, a lot of things worrying me. But a big one is my hair.
Hair. Why do you cause me such distress?
Anyway, my hair is at a pretty good length right now in which I prefer going without my wig. However, I'm quickly developing a patch in the back, and one of the ways that I prevent myself from pulling is by wearing my wig. My wig can also be a big confidence booster at times. But the point is, I generally don't wear my wig consistently. It changes with my mood. And at the therapeutic school, that was fine, because everyone knew about my trich (the school only has like 30 kids), and they just accepted that some days I had hair and other days I don't. But at public school, people aren't quite as understanding.
I'm worried that if I wear my wig on the first day I'll feel obligated to pretend it's my real hair and wear it every day so that I don't draw attention to myself. And if I don't wear my wig, I'll feel like I won't have the flexibility to wear it when I'm having trouble pulling or when my self esteem is low.
It may seem like a tiny problem for most, but I'm majorly stressing about it. You see, I don't want any unnecessary attention on me. No thank you. So this is making me feel very conflicted. I'd love to wear my wig on and off like I normally do, but I don't want the attention.
I really don't know what to do with this one.
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